Below is a story I wrote many years ago 2009, I share it today, because what God did in the past , he will do again in the future. God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
At the end of my story below, is what God did for me in 2019.
Over ten years ago, I was talking to an acquaintance before church. I shared the good news, that I had gotten a job, in my field, after a year lay off (Recession). In my excitement, I exclaimed, how I had even managed to arrange a ride to and from work with three different people, as my vehicle had recently died on me. (yep, stuff happens)
Later after Sunday Service, I went to an Elder at the altar call, because my usual prayer partner was ministering to someone else. I was absolutely hesitant to approach the Elder because, I needed to confess, a long-buried secret of mine. In my life, I have been through a lot, and as a child, young woman and as an adult, as year after year came and went, I grew up learning to hate men, I hated the way they treated me, their critical nature, the hurt and pain, verbal abuse, mental abuse, dysfunctional, and abusive natures. I grew up thinking I was not worthy, favored, or loved .I wanted the love I read about in my romance books, the love, that a man would go to the ends of the earth to prove his love for me and only me like in a romance novel.
I found there is only one who can love me , woo me, search for me, unconditionally love me, that kind of love only comes from our father in heaven. The one true love is that of Jesus, our Savior. I know Jesus, loves me, that through everything, I have been through; God was with me every step of the way. Jesus was with me when I felt abandoned and unloved. God loved me, when I was sick with thyroid disease, gaining over 100 lbs, losing my hair, and numerous medical problems from it. God was with me when my husband abandoned me for liquor and crack. God was with me when my home was foreclosed on, God was with us when my daughter went through a horrible custody battle, God was with me when I lost my job, God was with me when, I had to give up my rental home and move back home with my parents. God was with me when my car engine blew up and I no longer had a car. God kept me out of harms way when I was attacked physically. God was with me when I became sick and had an allergic reaction to medications given at the hospital and I literally thought I was losing my mind. Night after night, I had psychotic dreams, so horrifying, I will not repeat. God was with me. I truly believe God, put a saint (member at church) in my path, it is not strange that when I was at my weakest, she would call and lift me up, and when I was in my darkest hour, thinking, I was losing my mind, I cried out to Jesus, and I heard him say I am with you… call her, and I did. When I told her what I was experiencing, she prayed, on me, over me as an anointed saint of God. God used her and she brought me through, standing in the Gap for me. She is a wonderful Saint of God!
Then on the Sunday, I mentioned above, God showed me what I was hiding, the hate that I had not let go of, I remember looking at my Elder and absolutely did not want to approach him, and I heard God tell me to go forward, I could trust him. God has brought me through a lot. I had to trust God, and believe, that the Elder, would be able to help me pray about this situation. I trusted God first, then God told me to trust the Elder and confess my hate for men and the abuse I had endured, which I did.
Then the following Sunday, the elder had a word for me and then the Pastor and the Elder prayed for me. I studied the word the elder gave me and read the word, and sought God… what happened after service that Sunday.(Please read Below Highlighted area)
After studying and praying God gave me two scriptures, that was a first for me. Ester 2:11 and Malachi 3:10
In Ester, it was revealed to me that God is with me daily. God is concerned for me. Esters identity was hidden until a time for it to be revealed by God. (Still thinking on the last one, and how that pertains to me) In Malachi, it is a command for me to obey, to bring all my tithes into the storehouse, as I must act first, so God can act. God just blessed me with my new job, and tithing has been a weakness of mine, wanting to give, but never feeling I had any to give as I had more going out than coming in, during this time. I believed I needed to step forward in the supernatural, trust God, pay my tithes, so he can, in turn, bless me, which I feel like was a life lesson I learned after my elder gave me a word with my pastors ok…
After being led by prayer and getting a word from God on Malachi 3:10, I promised to start tithing according to what I heard God tell me to give, and in prayer I promised God, the amount I heard, then that following Friday Night, on the way home from work, my sister and I stopped at store, because traffic was stopped up and, I needed a restroom having got sick on the way home, When I came out, my sister was at the register buying cloths, and handed me a bag, saying here these are for you.
God reminded me years ago, how you helped me with clothes when I started my career, and I was told to bless you! I was overcome and told the manager how my sister was so sweet, how she was helping get to work, and my sister laughed and jokingly said, after a month you are on your own. I replied, that’s ok that is when God will give me a car, God just gave me this job, and my car is coming next. Then later that night before I could give the church my tithing, I received a phone call from someone who attends my church. I barely know this person, an aquaintence in greeting, from church had heard I didn’t have a vehicle, how I had a new job after a year lay off and that I had arranged rides to get me back and forth to work. The person wanted to know if I was interested in their vehicle, and gave me an in debth description, after several minutes, I said I was interested and asked what amount were they selling the vehicle. The person chuckled and stated “no, you do not understand, we do not want to sell it, we want to give it to you. I WAS SPEECHLESS!!!
The next day on Sunday (which was last week), I meet the person in church and gave them a card for their kind gesture, and I was informed that something was wrong with the vehicle, and, I laughed and said “No, the vehicle is fine, Satan is trying to steal my blessing and everything will be fine, the person wanted to put it in the shop to be sure, all was ok. I joyfully gave my tithing plus a gift. Then the following Sunday, after being told the vehicle was fine, arrangements were made to pick me up on Monday and carry me to the DMV. I took out an insurance policy, and when we got to DMV, we had to leave and have the car inspected (extra expense), then we went back to DMV, and God blessed me again, the persons would not let me pay for anything,
The party had paid for the inspection, taxes, tags, and license plate. We walked out and I was handed the key, we put on the plate and I drove away in a 1995 Dodge that was absolutely given to me by God. My elder was right, God was teaching me to trust him. God never left me, and he has provided for me through it all, and I know that I am loved, and a worthy person. God has released me from a lifelong bondage of hate toward men. I am free. At the same time God taught me a little at a time to trust him, and when my faith was built up, he blessed me. I can hardly contain my excitement to see how God moves next. All the praise and glory I give to God. And to my Pastor, elders, and friend, and all those who prayed for me I say thank you for you care concern and prayers. God Bless!
Three weeks ago, my car died on the way to the doctors. I was stranded for seven hours. I talked to God, my daughter and my friend Renee during this time, both were to far away to help me, yet they both encouraged me to remain calm. My anxiety was kicking up into full throttle, and I had no money for a tow with a store clerk telling me I couldn’t leave my car there. I didn’t even know how I was going to get home.
A dear friend, paid to have my car towed to a mechanic shop to get a diagnostic done. The mechanic revealed to me, that I had a foreign substance in my fuel tank, and I asked what did that mean? The mechanic said he believed someone had put sugar or sand into my fuel system. Did I have an enemy? The repair would cost $900.
I had no way to cover this cost, I have no income, I take care of my mom around the clock. What was I going to do, that car is our only transportation, why would someone do that to me, especially knowing it affects my mother and me. I couldn’t process that someone would be that devious, and purposely tear up my car.
This whole situation was out of my control. I prayed. Cried. Let it go and gave it to God!
Shortly thereafter, I had someone say to me in anger, “now you know what it feels like to go without a car, God is punishing you for not giving me a ride. ” I was shocked this person spoke to me with such anger, I had indeed turned this person down several times for a ride, because I do not feel safe around this person who could have put me in harms way, danger. I believe it was God showing me my enemy, who I needed to be very careful around, for God gives me discernment and gut intuition to go by to keep me safe. There are just some situations and people you have to say no too, in order to protect your life, freedom and safety. I feel this person is responsible for the damage done to my car in act of vandalism . I just cant prove it. More importantly, how am I going to get my car back on the road. Total Cost of Repairs $900.
While I was going through this God was working it out, and what was meant for evil , God turned it to Good, fourteen days later, two people came forth to help, one I knew the other wants to remain anonymous, and they are helping me get my car repaired. Nothing but God, I give him all the Glory! Repairs have begun , I am hoping to have my vehicle back by Friday!
I will have a car again. Just like ten years ago, God provided me a vehicle when there was no way to get one. Here we are ten years later, and he moved the cattle on the mountain (God Funds), provided the funds to fix my vehicle after vandalism, to cover and provide the need my mother and I have for a vehicle. And yes, it now has a brand new gas lock! God is just awesome.