Today I wanted to take a moment and thank you for supporting my writing, following my blog and inspiring me to write!
I enjoy reading your blogs when time permits, you all are incredible and brave for putting your stories, voices and passion out in the world.
I have been in a quiet mood since December, God blessed me and I won my disability case. First, I blessed those who stood by me during my trying times, my daughter and son in law and a dear friend (smile, you💜 deserve anonymous recognition) without them I wouldn’t have made it!
I bought a good used car, and began the hunt for a place to live. It took several months. and finally I have my own cute place! The stairs are a challenge, due to my health conditions, seriously sometimes I no choice but to crawl up! I am slowly furnishing my home, through thrift stores, it is livable, just not how I want it to be, more cozy and warm. I am a Taurus after all and my home is my sanctuary.
I have never lived alone, ever, in my life. The transition has been hard. Currently, my daughter and my grands are very near, I see them often, and in a few weeks that will change, they are moving. While I am excited about their move, and all the wonderful opportunities coming their way, I feel I am holding a reservoir of emotion back, that is trying to erupt along with finally being able to grieve over the loss of my dad in 2019. Despite my blessings, and I give all glory to God, I feel numb, and I force myself to be motivated.
There is no shame in my game, when I tell you all I am actively search for a good therapist who can help me transition through my grief, help me with relationships, and this sadness I feel when I am alone.
It takes courage to ask for help, and I thank God, there are wonderful Christian counselors out there who can not only help me, and if you are courageous as a mouse or a lion, just maybe help those of you who are struggling.
Self Care and Mental Health should always go hand in hand with all medical check ups! Below is a great article I found, I encourage you to read it!
Here are numbers to organization that can help or point you in right direction for help!
- The National Suicide Prevention Lifelineat 800-273-TALK (8255)
- Youth Talklineat1-800-246-PRIDE (800-246-7743)
- Trans Lifelineat 877-565-8860
- The GLBT National Help Centerat 1-888-THE-GLNH (888-843-4564)
- The Crisis Call Center at 1-800-273-8255
- The Samaritan’s Crisis Hotlineat 1-212-673-3000
- The National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-4673
- The National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7223
- The National Crime Victim Helpline at 1-800-394-2255
I am grateful and thankful, struggling to get joy back in my life, now please don’t misunderstand, my daughter and grandchildren give me great joy. The joy I am talking about, maybe, is my individual joy, finding me again. I have always been a giver, protector and caretaker for others, yet I fail at those three descriptions personally for myself. I believe I have a co-dependency issue? Will soon find out.
Writing in the past brought me personal joy, whether I was good or bad at writing is irrelevant.( I can still hear my 12th grade English teacher, telling me my writing was a failure to keep my job at a burger joint.)
Today, I pushed forward past my sadness, and I wrote this article to encourage others, lift and motivate with high hopes, it might just do the same for me! I only ask one thing of my readers:
Credit for pic to tinybuddha.com