I’m struggling, not sure how I feel. I’m not sure how to say what I want to say! My voice feels imprisoned. My thoughts feel trapped, I am confused, I feel conflicted! What does a person do? What does a Christian do and why am I remaining quiet? Why am I not speaking? Why are my words not coming forth like I want them to…I’m not afraid, got plenty to say, I guess I just don’t know how to put it in the perspective where I could say it.
Simply I want the truth 🙌. I feel like we are living in a parallel universe and the majority are pathological liars🤬 having lost their moral compass 🧭.
I use to think newscasters told the truth, far from it, now as it seems we are being feed a hidden agenda. Stories don’t match up and in a country where freedom of speech is an American right, we are all being silenced by Social Media corporations, I can’t post a list of immunity boosters without getting flagged or put in Social Media jail. Yet, when I report a video that came on my news feed with an actual sexual act, the response team said the video didn’t violate community standards. It didn’t matter that it violated me. It appears when you try to educate or be truthful or suggest being a free thinker, your gaslighted or punished. Yet it’s applauded when sex videos, run amok.
I’m tired of evil, mean people, politicians, treating lower class like dirt. I’m tired of fearmongering, bullying, lies, betrayals, deceit, corruption. I’m tired of hearing bad news everyday.I’m afraid for children in my family to go to school. I know people who have covid. I’m trying to pray, my prayers feel weak, I feel numb. I’m overloaded, overwhelmed, scarred and feeling lost. Suffering from anxiety, fear of stores, fear of people, going outside. I’m isolated. . My rituals are exhausting with mask, sanitizing, gloves. I have experienced moderate to severe anxiety on a regular basis.What is happening isnot healthy for anyone. Praying for courage to face fears and change.