I’m struggling, not sure how I feel. I’m not sure how to say what I want to say! My voice feels imprisoned. My thoughts feel trapped, I am confused, I feel conflicted! What does a person do? What does a Christian do and why am I remaining quiet? Why am I not speaking? Why are my words not coming forth like I want them to…I’m not afraid, got plenty to say, I guess I just don’t know how to put it in the perspective where I could say it.

Simply I want the truth 🙌. I feel like we are living in a parallel universe and the majority are pathological liars🤬 having lost their moral compass 🧭.

I use to think newscasters told the truth, far from it, now as it seems we are being feed a hidden agenda. Stories don’t match up and in a country where freedom of speech is an American right, we are all being silenced by Social Media corporations, I can’t post a list of immunity boosters without getting flagged or put in Social Media jail. Yet, when I report a video that came on my news feed with an actual sexual act, the response team said the video didn’t violate community standards. It didn’t matter that it violated me. It appears when you try to educate or be truthful or suggest being a free thinker, your gaslighted or punished. Yet it’s applauded when sex videos, run amok.

I’m tired of evil, mean people, politicians, treating lower class like dirt. I’m tired of fearmongering, bullying, lies, betrayals, deceit, corruption. I’m tired of hearing bad news everyday.I’m afraid for children in my family to go to school. I know people who have covid. I’m trying to pray, my prayers feel weak, I feel numb. I’m overloaded, overwhelmed, scarred and feeling lost. Suffering from anxiety, fear of stores, fear of people, going outside. I’m isolated. . My rituals are exhausting with mask, sanitizing, gloves. I have experienced moderate to severe anxiety on a regular basis.What is happening isnot healthy for anyone. Praying for courage to face fears and change.


18 thoughts on “Struggle

  1. I love you my sweet friend! Praying with you and for you. These times are so unsure and confusing. But mostly distracting. The enemy is working overtime. But greater is HE! You are not alone. 💜🙏🏼

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  2. The Struggle, with what’s happening in the world… Real. I hear your heart, and feel your pain. Why, I brought it, to a friend. God’s love, it’s hovering. May your heart and soul, be at peace. You’re in my prayers, as a matter of fact. God, gave me a message, for you. It’s in, my latest post; My Friend (s). God’s blessings!

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  3. Praying for you. I grow weary of this world too. We are definitely living in a time where people are calling good evil and evil good, but take heart because Jesus overcame the world. We have overcome the world through Him, and He is coming soon. Grace and peace to you.

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  4. I am with you…these are highly troubling times. I stay clisecto the truth in nature, sadly humans deviate too much from organic laws of respect and love fir the earth, animals and all living creatures. There are many confused and greedy agendas operating out there as well as so much control. Fly under the radar..stay close to what is real. Sending hugs and love.

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  5. The words I sent you in a previous post are also applicable here. Your observations are valid, we are surrounded by many things that are contrary to God’s will but do not despair. Jesus told us that these things must happen but not to be afraid or become overly anxious. God loves you and cares for you more than you can ever imagine. Our rest is in Him. I literally ask God to control the thoughts of my mind and to soften my heart to His perspective, daily. I know these are just words but God is in control, nothing happens to you or around you that He is not aware of. Nothing. I also ask Jesus to keep my hand in His because that is how close we need to be. We are not unattached from Him, we are not wandering alone and He knows what we need better than we do. Remember Peter trying to walk on the water, heading towards Jesus. Those waves can unsteady us but Jesus is always there, to take our hand and put us on that which He knows we can maintain. That is the starting point, you build on that, slowly, prayerfully and His sure hand of guidance will become more self evident. Don’t be dismayed by the waves, focus on Jesus who walks on them. Blessings.

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    1. Thank you, these are more than words, they are words of wisdom, that I need.Give my thoughts to Lord, Soften my heart, God is in control, Lord keep your hand on mine, please don’t let go I need your guidance. Place me back on my solid rock foundation, I may have been shaken off, fell down, I ask you to lift place me back on your solid rock.Guide me. Thank you Sir for words of wisdom and guidance and thank you Lord for divine explanation. I appreciate your comment it is a wonderful blessing to me.

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      1. Really glad to hear that , we all need lifting at times and I just felt led to respond to you. I always ask for God’s help and a good number of those words just flowed into my mind and I wrote them down for you. My first name is Bruce, Debra, reach out any time. Blessings!

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